Post by Rebecca Andrews on Feb 12, 2009 4:29:54 GMT -5
For the past few days, I have been feeling a little weird. Well, weirder than my usual. It's just that, sometimes, I get pulled into one of my silent moments, and soon enough I'd be contemplating about something. There were even times when I felt so sad, but I could not detect what was making me like that. It would happen in a flash; one moment the depression is there, the next it's not. So weird.
I've been thinking lately, and my thoughts are not so good. There are times when I feel so tired about some things. At times, I feel like giving up on something. I know it's bad. Heck, I don't even want those thoughts in my head in the first place. I guess one reason why I've been acting so off lately is because I've realized something.
It's just...there are certain things that you have no control over. You can only watch and let it happen from a distance. Even if you want to stop it from happening, you're forced to wait near its edge. Sometimes, you just can't help. Why? Because if you intend to help someone, make sure that whatever you're going to suggest, you're capable of doing also. Everything you say would be meaningless if you yourself can't do what you want others to do to make their lives easier. This is just an observation. Something I realized in myself.
I've been on and off these past few days. I've been sinking into silence more often than needed. But I guess it's time I learned how to keep my mouth shut, even once in a while. Problem is, when I do get silent, the first question that would be thrown my way is "Are you okay?". It's a little bit hard to explain that you're okay. True, you're just thinking about something, but is whatever you're thinking about not the type that's bothering you? Fat chance. Most probably, it is.
I also realized that I'm more patient than I think I am. Is this self-praise? It's just that I tend to wait out on someone, even if it means I have to set myself aside for the time being. Well, that's not bad, is it? I just wonder...
Would you like to dig deep into my mind? I guess not. You'd be drowned the moment you take the dive. But I won't be surprised. maybe the same thing would happen to me in other people's heads.
I've been thinking lately, and my thoughts are not so good. There are times when I feel so tired about some things. At times, I feel like giving up on something. I know it's bad. Heck, I don't even want those thoughts in my head in the first place. I guess one reason why I've been acting so off lately is because I've realized something.
It's just...there are certain things that you have no control over. You can only watch and let it happen from a distance. Even if you want to stop it from happening, you're forced to wait near its edge. Sometimes, you just can't help. Why? Because if you intend to help someone, make sure that whatever you're going to suggest, you're capable of doing also. Everything you say would be meaningless if you yourself can't do what you want others to do to make their lives easier. This is just an observation. Something I realized in myself.
I've been on and off these past few days. I've been sinking into silence more often than needed. But I guess it's time I learned how to keep my mouth shut, even once in a while. Problem is, when I do get silent, the first question that would be thrown my way is "Are you okay?". It's a little bit hard to explain that you're okay. True, you're just thinking about something, but is whatever you're thinking about not the type that's bothering you? Fat chance. Most probably, it is.
I also realized that I'm more patient than I think I am. Is this self-praise? It's just that I tend to wait out on someone, even if it means I have to set myself aside for the time being. Well, that's not bad, is it? I just wonder...
Would you like to dig deep into my mind? I guess not. You'd be drowned the moment you take the dive. But I won't be surprised. maybe the same thing would happen to me in other people's heads.